12/15/23: im feeling a lot better. im excited for lots of things!

hey everybody!

im sorry the last blog was kind of depressing, I'm feeling better now though! things just seemed really overwhelming then but I feel more at peace with everything and less just incredibly sad all the time. there are good things in this world.

I've been doing a bunch of study guides for my finals and I feel pretty prepared and omfg I am so ready for winter break

finals are on Monday Tuesday and Wednesday and I'm nervous but I know I'm going to pass everything, I've used all the finals grade calculators and I feel fine. 

i saw my aunt who I hadn't seen in awhile. it has to do with a bunch of stupid family drama I don't need to talk about on here but we were really close when I was younger, this was my first time seeing her since I was like 8 and I missed her a lot. it was really great seeing her shes just amazing 

I've been talking to this guy on discord I really like but he might read this so I wont say anything but I've been feeling happier lately

taylor swift club isn't doing so great I think I might stop doing it. i don't want to but nobody really shows up and I'm running out of ideas. i just need to think about it more

over winter break I'm going to the thespian festival in Wichita! I'm so excited us theater kids are gonna be there for 3 days and I just love everything theater and I feel so at home with that crowd of people and I hope I can get to know more upperclassmen in theater too. 

also that other guy I know irl I really like is gonna be there. I'm so delulu I've literally spoken to him like once but I just like being around him yknow? maybe ist just bc of the guitar. I love watching him sing and perform its so mesmerizing I cant take my eyes off him and I cnt stop smiling

even if I don't end up talking to him im good just watching him. ok that sounds creepy but I love just hearing him sing and he's kinda out of my league too I feel like 

but I can always dream!

omg I watched the 4 hour long hbomberguy plagiarism video on youtube and it was SO GOOD THE HYPE IS SO REAL. I've been getting into his channel and watching more of his videos and stuff and I really like his content its right up my alley. one of my favorite pastimes is watching long youtube videos about things I know nothing about. i just like deepdives and well done video essays and he's so funny and witty about it too 

that guy james sommerton is literally insane with his plagiarism and when he wasn't plagiarism he was just lying??? like making up the most random things??? anyway I highly recommend the video and all of his videos (esp the roblox oof one) so you should watch hbomberguy!

i also realize I talked abut getting discord on here and I did get it and I didn't tell anyone! so my discord is loonareklipze is anybody wants to friend me! im really in the market for online friends! 

omg I joined this swiftie discord server and I love it so much I love just always talking about taylor swift and making friends who are also swifties and going on tangents its great!

speaking of taylor swift again im in that swiftie book I believe I talked about awhile ago! look up on amazon "the swiftie story" and its a book im in! so its a bunch of submissions from people on why they're a swiftie and how they became a swiftie and all that kind of stuff and my submission made it in the book! you should totally buy it and post about it so taylor can see it!

i don't think im going to write much during winter break so bye for now!