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i constantly think of just having my life cut off and no one else knows. my stupid fucking anxiety consumes me so much that i am too scared to even tell my closest friends because i don’t want to scare them. i don’t want to scare anyone. i have no direct plan to do anything since i’m a coward. i am so scared i can’t even act at all. i am so petrified i would rather avoid all my problems than actively go through what i want to do. whether that be actually getting my life together or making it worse either way my cowardly inaction prevents me from doing anything anyways. i just want the world to stop. i want school gone. i want work gone. i can barely take doing the bare minimum. how pathetic is that? my life would be so much better without all this pressure on me to grow up. i dont want to grow up i never want to grow up. i want to live forever as a pathetic man child if it meant i can be happy for once. but that would never happen. i would just continuously suffer silently until the end of time as i disappoint everyone around me. im sorry everyone for subjecting you all to my stupid sad cowardly pathetic nonsense.