clam down

currently ~ fighting off cold #1228379247 of this year... couldn't escape december i guess

i decided not to go to ballet tonight and immediately felt so guilty and awful because i spent the weekend doing very little.. even though i still feel sick. today's stresses have been rejection sensitivity (feeling like anyone telling me no is a personal attack) and feeling like i'm not doing enough. but like i am sick. and my body is telling me to chill out. so i should probably chill out. and eat some dinner. i don't really feel better writing this out like i usually do but whateva!

hopefully i can continue to rest this week (and next.. when i'm off work) and not guilt trip myself about "doing nothing"... whatever that means. the ruminating sure has been going crazy today. need 2 stop dwelling and start enjoying myself.

tunez ~ dead man runnin' by seulgi