in a corner of the world i cannot reach stitched into the curtains and the woodgrain hours wait, patient and unfinished. every clock loses its etiquette; dizzy hands circling themselves. tiny rivers of oil through the pipes in single syllables drip,drip,drip… i write her name once, a threadbare ribbon. and the page blooms into a garden of inkstains, violets smudged beneath restless » Continue Reading
there’s no absolution in this—cigarette smoke in the lungs of a room. we dress our sins up in cheap perfume and dare the night to notice. the pavement’s slick with last week’s promises, and i’m slipping on every one. violence is rhythm, but rhythm is comfort, and comfort is the first thing we ruined. sharp fizz then nothing but glass. you wear it better than i do. chaos looks custom-tailored on y... » Continue Reading
may 19th. wedding cans turned war drums. womb splits, clock starts, he’s already late. beautiful baby boy and his screaming purple face. i ran out of time when i outgrew his arms. wood slams punctuation on every fight we never had because fear makes better glue than love ever did. i can be reprogrammed like an old TV, you just hit the side of it when the screen gets fuzzy (violence; the original ... » Continue Reading
the perfect geography of disaster, i’ve been paying the price in dreams i can’t wake from. the moon sneers behind a curtain of restless clouds, a faded outlaw tracing scars on my skin. time, time again, that petty thief, slips hours from my back pocket. but moonbeams double as lullabies. sometimes it’s a wild thing, howling at the weight of my mistakes- other times it croons, humming me into fin... » Continue Reading
beneath the epidermal veil, a soft ache where red blooms, wildflowers of fracture and fugue. each intermittent shard catching the faintest flicker, frangible pulse, a gasp as stubborn as spring’s first breath. the wound remembers the weight of sunlight, even when shadows press ink-stained truths on translucent skin. and somewhere in the quiet rupture, hope folds itself. » Continue Reading
seaside heights. the air was thick with fried dough and and we spilled tokens like lifeblood into neon machines, desperate to win something. my brother laughed when the claw machine actually worked, handed me a stuffed turtle. loud, alive, obnoxiously untouched. i tried to match him, shoving quarters into blinking machines. we walked the beach after, bare feet sinking into cold sand while the ocea... » Continue Reading
everyone needs something. hands out, eyes wide, mouths open, starving for what i cant carry anymore. stomachs been turned inside out too many times to hold anything steady. love dissolves in my hands, sugarcube soft, mouth too full to scream. i cant catch a name without burying it- i cant hold a face without breaking it. theres a new silence and its louder than the old one. grief pacing the ha... » Continue Reading
our moon sways slow, hushes the tide in my chest crickets play tiny songs for your feet sleep tastes like tin. goodnight, you goodnight, our everything hold still. the dark loves gently. » Continue Reading
in march i’m seventeen and starving for something i can’t name. all bones and bad decisions, my lungs full of cold air and my hands full of nothing. your memory slips back into my bloodstream with the grace of a liar who believes in their own confessions- sweet and dishonest and exactly what i needed. » Continue Reading
abandon subtlety- less talk, more spill. less tell, more show. you said you love me last night. i meant to give you everything but my tongue got tangled. the truth is: i want anywhere. anywhere i can be yours and you can be mine. we’d end up somewhere worth the mess, between words we’ve worn down to the bone. where the world spins wild off its axis & we don’t care because we’re not here for clocks... » Continue Reading
the velvet choke of gold-plated guilt drag your tongue on the cathedral floor in your evening gown stitched from gauze and shaking. no apologies spoken, just champagne colored silence and wrists hidden in opera gloves. we dance around the diagnosis, parading under chandeliers that drip morphine and mercy. said i’d quit, said i’d fight, but addiction’s just a lover with no mouth to bite. don... » Continue Reading
watching the microwave spin my leftovers on a carousel of regret. letting elliott smith needle my ribs while the group chat dies in real time. refreshing my dopamine like a prescription i forged. binge-watching sitcoms i already memorized just to feel something that isn’t shrouded nostalgia. falling in love with strangers on the train because they look like someone who’d understand my metaphors. b... » Continue Reading