I thought that the next day I would get rid of this feeling of rejection towards my body and others, but it still continues. I regret a lot of the things I came to do for attention, even more so I am disgusted by the people with whom I related and made me do things I didn't want to do. But it's my fault and I've already done it. When I started anorexia I di » Continue Reading
Sometimes I remember what those relatives did to me when I was little and I wonder if I was more desired as a child, if I have to act more childish to be used that way again. I'm growing up, I don't want to grow up, they only spoke to me because of my age and not because of my attributes, I would like to be a defenseless girl forever, but deep down I don't want to be desired that way. » Continue Reading
all the people i love always end up angry with me, that's why i'm alone, because i'm not enough for anyone, when i try to fix things it's already too late. i would like to wake up dead » Continue Reading