soooo it's been a while spacehey. i almost made the shit decision of having illegal sex, but thankfully my friends (and sobriety) convinced me to not have sex with someone way older than me. im going to las vegas this summer and having this reunion type thing with my preschool friends which is weird since i haven't seen or talked to them in like ten years. a few weeks ag » Continue Reading
heh so its been a few weeks. news: im no longer a weed virgin. nothing else much really. i might've just met my soulmate. heh. okay, thats it i think. -helena » Continue Reading
THIS SUX!!! i feel like the universe is telling me to move on. grieve my life and start a new one. the world is literally screaming at me "YOUR BEST FRIEND ISNT RIGHT FOR YOU!!! ITS NOT MEANT TO BE!!!", and i know it too. i cant move on though. im transferring to a new school, my academics are the best its ever been, everything in my life and everything im feeling is telling me to move the fuck on... » Continue Reading
The past week has been a fever dream. Not really a dream, but more of a subtle nightmare in disguise. Everything the universe has been telling me is contradicting to what is happening. It's been the worst week. The worst one, ever. I'll most likely be socially isolating for the next few days, which kind of sucks because it's spring break. But that's okay; I'll work on myself and try to figure th... » Continue Reading
today has been a horrible fever dream. i've got my tutoring session in an hour, and i've got to finish all my homework before then. im digging up my past and confronting my best friend about it, and i still ended up lying about my trauma, even with the person i trust most. i feel like im living in a hotel room. psychosis? i've been dissociating all day, and the universe is just dead set on me ... » Continue Reading
hi there. it's me. again. it's not even second period yet and i'm already tired. im in a zoom class right now. supposed to be studying french vocabulary. i can't focus because i'm too busy dreading my tutoring session tonight at ten. i spent all last night watching criminal minds and awaiting the arrival of the new show paradise city. i'm only watching it because andy beirsack is in it. i thought... » Continue Reading
EEKKKKKK!!!!!! so i came here from tik tok (obviously). i haven't been on myspace for months but omfg this looks so fresh xD idk really know what im doing on here, but maybe it'll be one of those things where i write things about myself and people read. nothing to report today tho. im still trying to accept my fate at the prestigious private school i'll be transferring to next year for the rest ... » Continue Reading