Its so so much.

I dont know what im doing. nothing im doing is working and im going in a downward spiral.

The side effects that the doctor warned abt are coming back. i dont want to be here. people always say, "but youre doing amazing! and everything you do is great!" its not. none of the things i do i actually enjoy.

and its like 100 times better when your family runs back and forth saying "you're wrong" or "your doing terrible" then receive 0 guidance

anyway, great note to start on

rlly just put vents here that im too scaresbj to talk to the ppl about