bruh

a year has changed me for the worst. i feel like everyone hates me, and i dont feel like i have control of my life. band has ruined all my confidence in myself, or was it me? idk i hate things right now and my tempter is going short. scarily short i dont know what to do. sometimes i just want to crawl into a ditch and never come out because what would happen if i did???? im sorry i dissapointed so many people. its eating at me. such small mistakes are just festering and clawing away at my sanity. i might be crushed under all the pressure.