I am a messsss

         Hello Lovelies, ok so i have been talking to this guy for well over a year now. We hit it off soooo well and I really really REALLY like him like a latte. Of course i've told him sadly he isn't ready cuz he isn't in the right state of mind right now, which I totally understand cuz after all that I've also realized I am currently  not in the right state of mind to be in a relationship as well. Like ya girl gots lots of problems that needs fixen before I start thinking about that stuff. Our relationship is complicated tho we aren't dating but we aren't just friends either, idk he has always stated that he really likes me and is in this for the long run so i'm not really worried about him ghosting me, in fact he was the one that said he was scared I was gonna ghost him after he told me. Idk why i've said all this when the real reason I made this blog was beacuse I am to scared to ask him if he wants anything for Christmas 💀 I guess for background info idk lol. Like I don't want to just randomly buy him gifts cuz what if he dosen't like it or alreadt has it (┬┬﹏┬┬). I always tend to overthink when it comes to stuff like this cuz I always think of the negative what ifs and thats how I know i'm not ready for relationships. I honestly don't know why i'm scared but I just really want to give him something but my thoughts keeps stopping me from doing so. I am literally holding myself back

                                          Goodnight Lovelies,

                                                                    Diavoletto <3