Day 29 of (HE GETS SILLLYYYYY!!) Till The Cycle Ends

hi helloooooo :333 :]]]]] where am i! where is this!!! who are you!!! WHO ARE YOU!!!!!!

[ Sleep Schedule || Previous Night ] -

I got a good 7 hours of sleep! But then i woke up at 3 am? ^^ i slept really early though so 7 hours is good and yummy. I took a nap later in the day too!

[ Socialization ] - 

I did a good amount uu i had my presentation early in the morning, so i spoke with my group a lot and had to leave class early, and they made sure to reach out to me through dms to say goodbye :] it made me happy! 

and it's odd how even despite being in a rush, i still crossed paths with some people on campus. didn't see M though, the streak is broken. its so over

[ Art/Creative ] -

DO NOT DRAW YOU AND YOUR OLDER BROTHER AS YOUNGER VERSIONS OF YOURSELF DONT DO IT I REPEA-- [EXPLODES]

(More on ISCARIOT Older Brother later. Check "Thoughts")

[ School Work ] -

I did my presentation today! It went well, i got nervous about it in the beginning, as usual with presentations. I'm confident till moments before presenting. I wrote a bulletin about it and everyone was so supportive and kind, it made me happy and we did well!!!!!!!!!

[ Hydration ] - 

Well hydrated!!! Grah grah! 

[ Physical Activity] - 

…i will. Tomorrow okay. Tomorrow after work, I AM FREE! AND THIS WEEKEND TOO, I AM FREE FROM MY SHACKLES. it will happen i swear, i need this too. 

[ Diet ] - 

I ate a lot of fruits and veggies today :OOO i do really love fruits and vegetables a lot, but usually the ones at home are either rotted or gone by the time i get around to it. Also me and my family dont have the same fruit tastes. Im waiting for it to properly be winter so i can have yummy oranges uu

I love winter fruits but that means the cucumbers and tomatoes rot and are less yummy. 

There was actually a Grey Cucumber Incident that i almost repeated today.
Here is the backstory. 

I ate a grey cucumber during last summer once. I got really really sick. I grew a third arm and genuinely got sick

And Then Today i saw a grey cucumber in the fridge again……my close friends advised me not to eat it fkjdhg

My friends howl from howls moving castle (guys its actually him i swear) even offered to order cucumbers to my house dgkhg i am surrounded by such good people!!! But i turned them down, my good friend i appreciate you so much, please use your hard earned money on anything else instead of cucumbers 

also

its confirmed im Testament from Guilty Gear. all it took for me to put down the cucumber was to be compared to a character i like lolol which I AM LITERALLY GROWING OUT MY HAIR!! to give off testament vibes and its already dyed black bc i like black hair. :D i win! ive accomplished it. im done here

[ New Information/Something New ] -

ive  listened to Wilbur Soot's new Solo album!!!! and i reaaallly did miss his music man. it's refereshing yet familiar to listen to his new album think Your city gave me asthma but with breakcore drumbs sometimes???? and different beep boops. i love it. i need some time distinguishing between each track though, there isn't any i dislike. its yummy. 

im also happy it came out during this time of the year, i already listen to his solo stuff especially in the winter, and its already december time. yippeee perfect timmingggg uu 

{ [ Music ] } -

Today i recommend you Little Black Backpack by Stroke 9 (my brother showed it to me a few years back) and I Don’t Think It Will Ever End by Wilbur soot. I relate to I Don’t Think It Will Ever End it’s short and the cute backing vocals feel like jack stauber (he gets saaaad!!! He gets siillyyy!!)

{ [ Thoughts ] } -

My brother might be moving to japan soon for work, and it’s been that way for a while. They key word was “might” but now it seems like he Will. and that made me emotional. I didnt think about it too deeply till i was sitting in the car with my dad and he said “well, you and your brother probably talked all about it last night, how do you feel?” but we didnt, i went to bed early that night. And i hadnt thought about how i felt. But the second i did almost immediately i almost sobbed right then and there. My father knows we’re close, basically everyone who has seen us two together knows that. We have a 3 year age gap, so it’s enough to look up to him but not feel like he’s too old for me to not relate to. We grew up very close when we moved around a bunch, i wore his hand-me downs, and he introduced me to all my interests as a kid. All the internet stuff? My older brother. He was an introverted kid who mostly lived in his head, moved a few schools from being bullied, had a few close friends, and was on the quieter side. Meanwhile i was loud and extroverted, surrounded by people, incredibly annoying and honestly A LITTLE EVIL. I WAS AN EVIL ASS CHILD! 

But anyways. Despite our differences, and in my opinion BECAUSE of our differences, we got along well. He knows a very true and natural side to me a lot of people dont see or associate to me. Im the bratty younger sister, im the kid you share your candy with, and im the one who brings her toys in your room to roleplay together with. We played a lot of legos together. He was the one who showed you the entire season 1 of rick and morty on his school chromebook, the one that lets the younger kid have the microphone for a second cause they keep whining, the one who let me actually play video games with him instead of giving me an unplugged controller. Maybe it was because he was lonely as well. But all i know is that he was a great older brother growing up. 

But it made me sad thinking about those little versions of us. Nostalgias a loop. But thinking about him going so far away feels lonely. Were close enough to argue and then be completely fine the next day. He said he wanted to collaborate on more games with me the other day, and that made me emotional too. I do like doing the artwork for his characters. But it made me emotional thinking agh. My dear brother, you trust me so much with your visions. I feel both honored and somehow melancholic. if we dont actually make something or work on something together after this, and that was the last ever time, ill be so incredibly sad. 

anyways.

oh also i got drivers permit. yippee! 

{ [ Turkish ] } -

Bence bunlari daha erken yazsam belki turkce biseyler yazmak icin de enerjim olur. Cok yorgun olunca ekstra turkce yazmak istemiyorum, useniyorum. Ama boyle devam ederse turkcem hic gelismez. Neyseeeee yarin daha cok yazarim bisey yok

okay thanks for reading!!!!!!! thank you so much for reading these :]]]] it really does make me happy. even if you are a lurker....just know that i am APPROACHING YOUR LOCATION RN IVE AM ACTIVELY RUNNING TO YOUR RESIDENCE

kidding. but thanks for reading and being here :DD i like tracking my thoughts. cause in all honesty, if i dont i really dont remember what days i did what. my memory is actively working against me

anyways goodbye goodnight!!!! gnight see you later!!!!! buh bye!!!! ^^

Me canonically :33 (i am not built like that. i wish i was that tall. but also me irl i swear, Howl Howls Moving Castle said so)