hi (not dead yet)

i desperately need to update my profile but. hello! things are going well(?) for me. relationships are very hard to maintain. school is. Not going well for me. but i graduate very soon

i got a really good job and i actually like it. starting to think i will actually have a long term job for once. the money is good- im saving up for college right now.

sometimes i think about saying fuck it and spending my savings on going somewhere. japan maybe. or australia but i do not believe i am welcome there. 

anyways, ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

.maybe one day i will stop posting here and finally invest in a diary.................. . . .  .