can I not turn 14 pls

why is time so much faster now

it's already 3rd quarter in my school but I don't recall much happening

it's like i just sat there

for 5 months

has it really been 5 months? it feels like 2

yk consent is for focused nowadays

so I do not consent to growing up for time passing by like the wind

can't it slow down

or can the days be a bit longer I don't want to go home js like that

I won't mind starting at 6 and ending at 4

or maybe bc or elementary sched was like that so now it only 8am -3pm now in hs it feels like nothing

I mean I appreciate 7hrs more compared to 9hrs but I feel like I did nothing

I don't want to be put out in the world by myself in 5 years

I haven't learned anything

I'm going to die because of lack of knowledge

I'm going to die with lack of knowledge

I'm going to die with the wrong view people have of me

I mean if they knew who I was rlly in my thoughts I would be dead already lol