VIDEODROMEEE PART 2

I’ve given myself a bit more time to think about this movie, and I've had some crazy thoughts about it. Like- “I'm scared there's a mind reader that will hear this and be disgusted” type of thoughts… So I'll try to explain what that movie made me feel because I really do need to get it out…

One thing for sure about that movie and what I, me personally, think about it: that shit was hot. Dead serious i genuinely do believe that and yeah call me a freak i know there’s a lot of people that think it was freaky and not in the way i do but like- that's the beauty of it i think. I thought about this with my friend and honestly to combine violence and eroticism so beautifully like that, to make them almost completely inseparable, you can’t have one without the other, it’s like sex I think. Who knows maybe I'm just crazy and maybe you think I'm a freak but maybe you think I'm so right… just saying… 

My mind has been completely stuck on that stomach opening, you know what I mean? I don’t know i'm probably losing it from thinking about it too much but my god i just- i can’t even describe what i felt about it you’d have to let me scream and cry about it for a long time to get it, or like have a telepathic bond with me like that to get what i think… 

I think I liked it, because to me it shows how no matter how civilized and all high and mighty we as humans try to act, we’re still disgustingly freaky animals. We are still animals. And we have animalistic desires and ways to obtain that satisfaction, be it through sex or violence. And it’s sexy when they’re put together, and you know it. You wanna look away but it’s interesting and it pulls you in and grabs your attention and for a moment that feeling of disgust is like your mistress and you’ve got no other choice but to watch it. Eitherway, whoever you may be, one, the other, or both still give you pleasure and afterwards shame. Like  I said, what do I know? Maybe I'm projecting my own ideas onto this movie too much. I mean what's a 16 year old guy gonna know? I don’t know… to me such primal instincts meshed together is so intriguing, I couldn’t look away, not even in disgust or horror.

All in all, amazing movie, thanks Camy baby for showing it to me i love you for that. That shit was hot and people should see that in it more. VIDEODROME to me is one huge fuckfest between sex, desire, violence, and shame, and it’s the greatest thing ever…