neocities

hrrrrng the thing is that neocities is one of the best things that has ever happened to me.   ive legiterally made friends from it and found a whole new artistic medium of html. on the other hand thiough its all my life revolves around. no joke im allllways thinking about it. like i have miss OCD and i think neocities is just being anotherway of being obsessive about things which makes it more unpleasant than pleasant nowadays which suxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx for being one of may favorite things on earth. 

when i think my website is ugly its sooooo bad my mental health is badddddd and ijust want to delete it and start over right but i cant do that its my own bastard child i need to deal with it but i cant just take everything down for a few months. cuz that way number not go up. :( so it sits mostly dormant right now . love youu guys