random life update

so like my grandma is now kind of cut out of my life from her not using my proper name. I am still taking my dose of 5 meds everyday, 3 times a day i take my meds. They do make me feel a little bit better so it's better than nothing. Been feeling kind of high the past few days even though I'm sober. I've been just kind of out of it, doing things that I wouldn't normally do. Like I've been cleaning and helping around the house but randomly snapping at my mom when she pisses me off. I have also been just not paying any attention when I babysit, I try to but I just can't seem to keep my eyes on the child. She's boring. I dunno whats wrong with me right now. sigh