mindless chatter

wednesday 29th november at 12:51 am 

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i need to sleep so badly but for some reason i just can’t. i’ve got work tomorrow morning and i really don’t wanna go but i guess i have to ☹️. it’s raining right now and i’m in bed listening to the water pour down my window. i haven’t been feeling too good lately, my cat was hit by a car 2 days ago and her pelvis shattered and there was nothing that the vets could do to save her. i miss her so much she was such a beautiful angel and she was only 2 years old. i wish i could sleep but i feel so guilty. about losing my baby, and pushing away my friends, and my constant urge to destroy my life, and my silly little antics. i don’t know. no one will even read this but i think i just wanna speak. i hope you’re feeling okay today ❤️‍🩹