well then

they're getting an SOS dropout and s--cide intervention for me for next Wednesday.

context: I've been skipping for a good 2 months now, living my best life, finally happy, and being able to feeling say what I think without being scared of the repercussions. I told them everything about how I feel, mentally and they basically told me "suck it up, classes are more important" so I started attending less and less classes to the point where I only go into music on Wednesday afternoons. but because I've missed so many classes recently, I have a huge test to redo, on Wednesday, eight as my music lesson starts, even though they know that music is the only lesson I go into and genuinely enjoy. I hate them for taking away the one pleasure this school can provide. they're dumb, as well, for offering to help me get an apprenticeship yet not doing shit for 2 weeks, not even updating me of the process. they were gonna get me into sound engineering in the local stage so I can learn if that the path is ant to follow but nope, they can't even do that. all it takes is a phone call and a meeting and that's all, but they can't even be arsed to do that for kids. 

I'm a s--cidal dropout failure who's changed schools fuck knows how many times.they are all aware of why I left, the gruesome shit I went through last year and why I'm still stuck in my first year of highschool after 2 years. 

fuck them, fuck society, fuck the machine, fuck expectations, fuck humanity, fuck society, fuck the economy, fuck life and fuck everyone in it.