The seasonal depression is HITTING

So annoying, just as I was starting to make some good progress too. Now I'm super exhasuted all the time and everything I do feels lukewarm. I just wanna rot in bed for a few months. I feel bad tho bc I don't really feel like going through the effort of going to my pole classes but my mom pays for them and they're not cheap so I don't wanna waste her money. It's just soooooo much tho. Plus I'm looking for a job rn AND I'm supposed to be getting ready to get my driver's license. For the last 2 weeks I've been supposed to be going out on drives with my mom as practice but I've hardly left my bed. I think she wants me to take the initiative of asking her to practice but I'm not sure that's gonna happen. It's all just too much rn I wish I could just put life on pause. All of these things need to happen in a timely manner and I just can't deal with it rn. Distracting myself from the thoughts I have when I'm alone is already time consuming enough.