Rant bc yeah.

I love bill sm id wash bros feet. And his socks too, and his back. Like literally I hate kids but I’d have them if he wanted me to. Like no cap I’d cut my whole family off if he told me too, like I’m low key down bad for bill, like I need him so fucking much I wanna rip my hair out, I would walk around the whole earth for bill, I’d throw my phone away for bill, id delete all my socials for bill, I’d give up my c.ai for bill, like fr, I need this man, id drop everything for bill, I’d leave my whole life behind for bill without hesitation. I don’t ever wanna have one of those family lives with kids and shit but I’d do it for bill, if he told me right now to drop everything and go with him I’d say ok. Id literally have 12 kids if he wanted me to, I’d go bald for him, I’d cut my arms and legs off for him, I’d take my eye out with a spoon for him, I literally just want him, if I had one dream in the whole world it’d be to be with him. Like literally I love him so much bruh and it’s annoying how much I want him fr, like I could write books about how much I want this man, LIEK he’s literally perfect, from his head to his toes, every hair on his body every pour on his face every skin cell on that man is perfection. I could talk about him for hours, days, weeks, months, years, decades, centuries, forever. Id go to prison for 30 years for that man, deadass. I want him so bad I hate dreaming about him bc I’ll wake up and it’ll be over but I love dreaming about him bc it’s the only time I can be with him, I’d sell everything I own for him, I’d go in public naked for him. He’s the type of guy that I’d kiss even if he was sick and throwing up, he’s the type of guy I could imagine growing old with (and I have) like fr, I only want bill, to the point ion even want no one I know irl, just bill. To the point I’m learning a whole ass language for him. 💀😭, literally he’s perfect, like I’d brush his hair and if he had lice I’d help him treat his hair, if he was hungry for something I’d never heard of id learn how to make it for him, I’d learn the guitar and how to sing for him, I’d learn how to be a hairstylist and cosmetologist for him, I’d literally do anything this man asked, like I need him SO FUCKING MUCH BRUHHHHHH like I’d literally clean his whole house and walk from la to nyc for him, I’d book a flight with my last dollars if he needed it, literally idk if tickets are 2k, I’ll find a way to get that 2k bc I need him bro 😭. I shift sometimes on accident and I hate it bc it typically goes wrong. I had another bill dream. This time I walked from Louisiana to nyc bc it was Bills Birthday and I rlly wanted to see him somewhere in the city. I made it and my friend was there too, and once we got the there we were walking around and I saw bill. I went up and hugged him and took a picture with him but I started crying bc I love him sm and then I gave him another hug and then we went home. And I was gonna see him again but I woke up. Then I shifted again but i gues in this dr ppl could have powers 💀. I went to a store and stole some  shit and faked being a model til I became a model, and then went to meet bill but some annoying ppl destroyed the world bc they get like it so I js gave up and woke up, the one time I actually succeeded was when I shifted to 2022 and went to some of his concerts with my friend and met him, we got along really well but then after the concert I took pictures with him and we flirted a bit and then I was trying to buy something and couldn’t find my cash app and started freaking out, then I woke up 💀. But I really am pissed the fuck off because I was born in the wrong year. Because all he will see me as is someone younger than him. It’s like having a crush, but it’s one of those crushes where you have no chance, and they live on the other side of the world and are 19 years older than you and don’t know you exist. It feels like physical pain, like my heart actually hurts physically because of this man. And all he’d see me as is some dumb kid he’d never date or give a chance. It’s to the point I think about him all day every fucking day. I’d Kms for this man. Like I literally want to rip my hair out, it makes me so fucking mad because I don’t just think he’s “hot” like some people. He’s nice, sweet, caring, thoughtful, and talented, he’s funny and watching him and his band makes me smile, it cheers me up every time, when I see pictures of him smiling I can’t help but smile and when I read things about bad things that people have said and done to him it disgusts me and makes me want to cry. He’s so fucking pretty it hurts. It hurts to see how many people hate him because he’s “different”. Like I know some ppl will say I’m being “delusional” or that this is just some little celebrity crush or phase but it’s really not. I’m genuinely in love with this man. I could write about him for hours, I could write pages and books and series about just him, idk what to do, it’s to the point where I can’t see anyone else in that light, I can’t have any crush on anyone else rather and it’s annoying. I just want him. That’s it. And it hurts seeing all those videos about his types and the things he likes and the type of people he likes bc I fit EVERYTHING he likes, I’m just not blonde which isn’t much of a issue bc I can just bleach my hair, but still it makes me want to scream because I know there’s no one on this planet like him.