abandoned blog omg sowwy

i have been seriously neglecting freddie blog im kinda sorry. anyway i have a lot of thoughts but i get a lot of them are going 2 come off as typical teen angst shit so like kms but whatever. ignore it if u know me or whatever u want

my dad is out of his nice era. he was in it but now hes out. back to not being able to stand him after a good long run of us easily getting along. tell me why hes always gone and always giving me for shit i didnt do. not my fault u decided to go out of town today w ur gf and not tell me and expct me to know all this stuff liek u left at 5am i wasnt awake i even asked what they were up to and yet. gone to hamilton or wherever tf. if it was one of id be easy id be chill but. ermm whateva. my mom gets it obv cause she knows my dad but i didnt get her 2 get me cause i was working under the assumption tht i had 2 do smth w dad on monday but nooo. couldve been gone the whole time. my moms my best friend eva and yet i have 2 be in Lonely Town. feel 2 annoying 2 call my friends or anything too so we suffer til we dont yk

nah cause literally this exact second he has text me. a list of things he i upset at me about. my friend my brother in christ none of these things r my fault but thats okay. gone tmr while hes at work. kind of entertaining the idea of moving in w my mom full time. i really need a job. i just wish he wasnt so nice to eveyone else idk. 

want to hang out w my friends. miss u mikeyway once i work out my timing ill see u promise. also going 2 see another one of my friends and i need to make birthday plans w a bunch of people but its okay. i wanna see my bf but i dont wanna go out. sorry mayb we can figure smth out. funny thing abot being up at my dads is i really miss everyone cause its liek a billion years everyday that passes alone. or whatever

miss my mom

i dont even hve other thoughts. everyday is incredibly mind numbingly boring and i am not enjoying it. happy holidays gang. might go on walks once i get to moms. almost a week sober and im celebrating that alr let me have it

fredz