˚୨୧⋆｡˚ November 25th

i thought i'd write again because i havent in a while. not much new has been going on. i want to say that, but actually a lot has been going on. i slept over at sallys house, and it was just us because her mom i think went to visit her boyfriend in the hospital. there was a lot of drama which was not my business, but the point is we were alone. we got really, really stoned and watched a bunch of movies and I was really geeking. We watched the Scott Pilgrim movie. It was not very good. I like to think I am Ramona, even though I know it's supposed to be a bad thing, being compared to her that is. But my sister says I'm more of a Kim, and I think I'm like Knives. I would rather be Kim than Knives, but I'm not very happy with both. I'd like to be a manic pixie dream girl, just because I like the idea I could make people happy, even for a short time. I think I am just a sad person to be around. Anyways, the morning after it was cold and we wanted to go to the movies, but nothing good was playing and nothing else was free. So we just smoked more. I would smoke a roach right now if I had one, I'm desperate. I think I need better coping mechanisms. All I do is cut myself and vape, and I don't support vaping because it is really bad for you, and I get really high untill I forget about everything. I don't remember what happened to me, but I know it was bad. I remember my dad choked my mother. There was a lot of screaming. The rest I want to forget. By the way, I hate everyone at school now. People call me a druggie but beg for my nic everytime they see me. And a girl started a rumour about me, and laughs everytime I see her. The thing is, the rumour she started wasn't even about me. It was about my mom. My ex talking stage stage stares everytime I see him. Fuck him.Fuck everyone.