writevember #17 honda civic moment

note i typed in my car at 12:23 this afternoon

something very exposing about november sunlight. i can really see everything. the air is crisp and there is no smog of summer. clear cold sunlight and i can really see whats in front of me. when i look at my hands i can see the blood pulsing through my perfect form and it feels exciting. i understand myself and my suffering and i understand that its not necessary. the november sun lets me know that. i try to understand but i dont understand. my fear destroys my curiosity and my ability to change and grow with each passing moment. fear destroys my sense of humor. it makes me cold and ignorant of my warm pulsing body. i love the reflection of white vehicles and buildings bouncing off the cold sunlight. i feel them really. i understand the way it feels to be a reflection of light and it feels so happy. the sky is grey but the sun shines nonetheless and it creates a perfect image for me driving in my car.