hi

Hi, sorry for my english, i try to learn.

So these days i was not feelign really well. My health is bullshit. Also my mental health too.

I'm autistic and sometimes i feel like people who know i am don't understand me.

I don't have friends. I have a group of friends yes but they have subgrups where i'm not invited idk why ): i'm allways nice to everyone who is nice to me.
I have a bf. I trhought we were okay. We had been together since highschool. He is 1 grade bigger than me. I never had luck on love since now, or that's what i thought cuz all of a suden he start's talking about a girl from his highschool (now we study on diferent places) i allways get cheated on idk why ):

idk if he means he thinks she is cute but sounds like yes. I'm sad now.

idk, i just need to talk to someone but i don't think my friends really care about how i feel.

ty.