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my dog is driving me crazy. i've taken him out at least 5 times this evening and he only wanted to pee and play. he's been walked, been fed, has water, turns down snacks. he does this almost every night at midnight. i keep trying to put my foot down cuz if i leave him out by himself he'll just bark and it's getting cold out and I'm not putting up with it anymore. his cries are making me feel bad though. like i'm torturing him. i'm only typing this whole thing so that i don't look at him and he thinks i'm busy. i know i'm gonna put him out by 2 anyway and he'll be okay but. ugh he's like honking now. does anyone with a dog know the noise?
lmao why am i talking like anyone cares. i don't even know whether to put this on private or not yet. i don't think i will because i used to overshare so much online in my youth, talking like so many people were reading when no one would reply lol. and i don't really care how "embarrassing" that was anymore. it was a valid outlet i think. i just feel compelled to just act like i'm 10 years old on here at the moment which just means completely unloading what's on my mind for no reason, for some reason. i wish all the old blogsites i posted the dumbest things to were still around. then also i was going through my email the other night because i thought i had more left of my mom, but there was maybe a few old fb notifications. can't even get into her or my old emails because they were connected. then I remembered how many posts i deleted years after thinking they were just sooo cringe. they weren't. i remember once i even went so far as to throw away all "embarrassing" pages in my notebooks, despite the chances of anyone seeing them besides me being so so low. well actually that's a lie because i don't reeally remember it. i don't think it was me in my body when it happened. i just remember thinking everything was over, but then it kept going. things like that happen sometimes. hell i barely recognize myself right now. i swear i'm not just a sad sack, but i can't help feeling bad for the me that was. anyway, i'm thinking about finally putting a desk in my room lol. i paint on the floor, and i wanna journal and type on here more and doing that in my bed is just not it. it'll look so cluttered but don't think i care anymore. man even just a big chair would do. i think i'm gonna watch awkward lol i just remembered she blogged. i have it in picture in picture now :p am I getting too old to watch stuff like this? ..she kinda looks like me lol...
ugh my dogs under my bed now just so he knows i can hear him, i thought he was finally calming down. -.- praise the lord he just moved to his bed which means he's willing to cope for a bit. promise to take him out one last time after this episode
i'm done now sorry. goodnight loserzzz ;3 <3
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Literally you are doing what this site is made for! Letting your thoughts down on a page that is all yours and completely for your use! I’d say you’re not being any type of way when you write like this. Not “young” or “embarrassing” or anything. That’s all in your mind. It’s like that sometimes. But sometimes it’s not. That’s what I focus on. A lot of people that speak on your contemplation just wish it was figured out. That’s all. I hope u enjoy this message cause I mean it, lol. All love for u and your dog.
Btw idk maybe there’s another problem… try taking him to the vet and asking questions or just looking online for some quick remedies.
Again, I loved reading your entry.
Ciao for now!
omg I got back into here! :s this was so nice to see :) I did enjoy it a lot, thank you. and yeah, I'm certain it's because he lost his routine because my sleep schedule was soo messed up, it still is but I've been working on his lol. I enforce that he's not goin after midnight no matter what and this post was kinda the start of that. he's getting used to it especially since I made his dinner a little earlier. he doesn't make me get right back up while getting in bed anymore & I'd say that's a success.
you're right though. i was actually a lot more self conscious when I was younger and I think that part stayed a little bit, but it has started flowing out freely again. it's like I'm untangling lol. that's what I've always liked about sites like this, just human flow. & like hell, I wish it was figured out too lmao. i hope to see u back online soon
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