school

dawg not to be a downer but like i started hs this year and it’s so weird cuz i’ve kinda been looking forward too for so long. i feel so drained though and it’s liiiiterally me assignment after the other with the additional stress of figuring out what clubs i need a join and sports to hopefully get into college cuz they look into that sort of thing (depends obv)

- something’s that’s also been bumming me out is how i don’t draw much anymore. i love drawing more than almost anything but ive felt so stuck for like a year or so. its sos sad because i wanna draw my little ocs and other things but i genuinely don’t know how to get better😞 it makes me so upset. like it’s too late /even tho that’s not true but cmooooon t really feels like that sometimes.

anyway i’m usually such an optimistic person but im wondering if the rest of my life is gonna feel like i’m never doing anything that makes me happy. like im stuck doing stuff i do t want to, or im not smart to do anything i portant. my grades aren’t even that bad but sometimes it feels like they should be.

it’s okay. i always find a way to be positive towards myself no matter what and i really don’t want to loose that this early on in my life.