Time is a bitch

I feel old...

Every now and then I get hit with an overwhelming awareness that I'm getting older. I remember being in my twenties and thinking I could never imagine being in my thirties. Well, I'm in my 30s now and it feels exactly as I expected it to. 

I listen to the music I loved in my teenage years and it stirs up emotions, good and bad. I feel like I wasted my twenties on drugs and partying. At the time it seemed like it was what everyone was doing and that was true, but I had aspirations and dreams and I never accomplished any of them. It feels like it's too late now. I wanted to make a career in music in one way or another but it feels like there's no point anymore. I lost the spark. I can't write anymore.

 Maybe it was all just a waste of time.