AHHHH (ranting)

Does anyone else feel really awkward all the time? Like, I get really nervous speaking to people- and even people I've known for years on end?- also, I feel very insignificant. Like, I don't want people to care abt me because that's embarrassing but I also wish people gave two shits, y'know? I also feel out of place because people are always talking about crushes and I don't understand those feelings. Well yeah, I think people are attractive but I don't actually feel any love towards them. Idk if it's just because of my age or the people who surround me or whatever 0-o. I wonder if anyone relates bcs I have no friends or social skills and want to relate to someone. But I probably would get too nervous -_-! Im starting feel like a little emo teenager right now but I can't even deny it at this point.

But seriously, does anyone relate? Or at least think they do? I'm confused too...