It's Sunday!

Yeah as the title says, it's Sunday! Been one hell of a week, and next week doesn't seem too much easier.

The weekend in itself has been a rollercoaster: my sister slept in the same room as me because she couldn't get sleep in her own room. I couldn't really study anything for next week's tests bc of it. Not blaming her though! 

Anyway, we get to today, and me and my sister get to our mom's(divorced parents, last week we spent at dad's), and she has taken off my sister's door! Great! Loving the vibe already! I know she got caught for shoplifting, but taking off a whole ass door for that?? Our dad sure didn't have to to get the point of "stealing's bad" across. I'm slightly scared to be home now.

Me and my friends started a band this week. We even got to make reservations for the music room in our school, and Tuesday's gonna be our first appointment. We've decided on a name and even the first few songs to play, but the only problem is that there's only three of us and we're not like Nirvana; 

I'm the lead singer and I can't play the guitar for shit, at least not while singing! My other friend can play the guitar well but not sing, and the third friend can just play the bass or drums, so one of those two has to go. Or then we'll try finding a fourth member. For now though, we'll probably try dropping the drums and see where that leads us. Wicked Game by Chris Isaac should be easy peasy, but other stuff like The Smiths could be a bit tricky.

Anyways, to next week.

I have three big tests, English, maths and psychology. English and psychology should be fine, but maths??? There's no way I'll pass, even if I tried to study early. I've been thinking about exchanging into the easier maths courses, but that would mean messaging my guidance counsellor again, and I've already been messaging back and forth with her for a whole month. I'm scared she'll grow tired of me, even though she probably already deals with a hundred cases like me daily AND it's her job to.

It's maybe a bit embarrassing to admit I'm bad at studying even though we've been studying studying in psychology. We wrote an essay on it, that I DEFINITELY didn't study enough for. Might show up in my grade, hopefully not too much. They're shit anyways.

Christmas is approaching, too. I've been thinking of a few gift ideas and even made the order for a few. I don't really know what my friends would like, even less my family members. Christmas doesn't really feel the same again, has not since I was eleven. I miss being a kid, sometimes. A lot of times, actually.

I don't know what I'm writing this blog for. Well, maybe for blogging, that's what they're for, but I've never been good at diaries (I've tried to, though!) and even worse with public writing stuff. Maybe this will end well, maybe not. We'll see. I'll be updating when I feel like getting something out of my system, because those days are getting more and more frequent since relationships with my friends seem to be dying out a bit and I don't have anyone to talk about this kind of stuff anymore. A bit sad, I know, but I've been in this situation before, and even worse ones before that. 

So if you actually want to read about my life, prepare for some depressed-gloomy stuff because that's the waste of my brain and I actually want to make it through winter.

Love ya, see ya - Garlic!

19.11.2023