just sometimes i wish to not feel

i dont know these days be a little to much, nightmares about stuff and im trying so hard to not isolate myself from people but it's getting a bit harder. sometimes i get the mindset that it doesnt matter and that people wont care. but i know it's not true. ive been thinkung that ive been doing good but in reality i will never escape from this feeling. the only way to get away from it is to go out and do stuff but the more i ignore the feeling it will start to get bigger. how do i stop this.

i dont know but ill be okay