11/16/2023

recently finished up my new website update, i still got so much shit to work on though but its good i like having work and shit to do. Gonna try and transfer a lot of things that my old site had onto the new site without it getting too cluttered while still having things easy to access but i'm not sure how to really set that up yet.

also been reaching out more after kind of secluding myself for like a whole fucking year. genuinely gave up on socializing with people after being continuously beaten down by some really rancid fucking people for most of our life and so I've kind of ended up just taking over to stop us from having to deal with people anymore and jsut stop having a social life outside from people we already know and if we do meet new people i was always really fucking hesitant and guarded or atleast just never got close with anyone. I still do this but it's gotten better, tumblr is a pretty chill palce and people have been really nice to me for some reason and been talking a bit more to people who actually. treat me really nice. its really fucking intimidating im not used to people being so? gentle? respectful? i dunno its just weird. i dont know if im uncomfortable by it, overwhlemed probably yeah but eh its probably good for me to start socializing more and try and find good people.

things have been going pretty good though, it's really really weird having peace like this, i didnt think we'd ever get to this point. after like 20 long ass years we finally have some stability and its fucking weird, its like stepping on land after being out in the ocean for a while and you have to get used to the fact the ground isnt constantly moving.

uh yeah anyways thats all i guess