dreams - a poem

(def not about spiderberry from miguels perspective tehe)

What do you want from me?

Do you think that you can save me from myself?

What do you want from me?

Are you mistaking me for someone else?

Someone better

Maybe a bit more clever

A bit more empathetic

A bit less completely pathetic

All you want

You can reassure me

Convince yourself 

You’re not gonna hurt me

Real eyes realize

That you won’t berate me

That you don’t think I’m the monster

I know I am

That you don’t secretly hate me

An “excuse me”

Would be nice

For barging so rudely

Into my life

Cause without you

I was doing oh so fine

By myself

But now I need your help

To understand how hard it is

To trust somebody else

I wake up

To the sound of screams

Are they mine or yours?

You haunt my nightmares

Or are they dreams?

I pass from girl to girl

And guy to guy

Like I’m the ball at a soccer club

I don’t like feeling all my feelings

I’m too afraid to fall in love

I’m asking you to be patient

Just so you know, I can guarantee

That this is not as hard for you

As it is for me

You with your dark green eyes

And your perfectly imperfect smile

And how you check the door

Making sure it’s locked

Cause you forgot one too many times

I don’t think I understand

Why I’ve been paralyzed

Grew up in a broken home

So I never knew the feeling of paradise

So could you heal that little kid

Who got uprooted like a weed

Could you fix the broken man

That he grew up to be

I know you can

You’ve got the power of everything in your hands

I know you will

Turn my nightmares into

Dreams