why

 yesterday was a rly good day 4 me. i spent the day with my gf and i jst felt rly at home/comfortable with life. today has been the exact opposite of that:/ i cant do anything but lay in bed. all of my distractions feel void, and i feel incredibly useless. i need to get a therapist, ive tried to communicate that to my mom but nothings happened in the past 5 months. ive been good with sobriety, as well as staying away from sh, but im starting to question if its even worth it if it all ends out this way