Social cues

ever sine i was a young girl i never understood social ques, let me tell you about a memory i have, i had a childhood best friend her name was jasmine one time her and her mom was inviting me to this fun event and they seemed very very exited and when they told me about it im sure they was expecting for me to get all exited too. but no. i just stood there very awkwardly with a slight smile, i swear on the inside i was so exited i just didn't know how to show it! weird huh ? me not being able to show an emotion i was feeling, this isn't the only time this has happened  now that i think about it i remember multiple times this has happened i never really thought about it untill now, i just always thought myself as a serious person. still to this day i kind of have that problem. ive been working on it. i was never really good at communicating or getting along with others, when i was around 14 years old i was put in a awful situation, i became extremely deppressed. i was held againt my own will and was stuck in a room. i wasnt going to school either durring this time, so i was alone for a while, this has affected me still to this day, this came to an end eventually