Moms

I feel my mom is a hypocrite. She claims to not believe in mental illness yet uses it as a way to hurt and degrade me whenever I show signs of mental health problems. She has demonized my problems to the point that when I realize my mental health is getting bad I feel guilty. I want to find something to help, well, something that isn’t drugs or alcohol. I want to be a healthy person but I feel like the lack of support from family is slowly killing me. I have my partner, my shining light in all this, and she does as much as she can. My appreciation of her extends beyond words. However, not everything can be so easily changed, and in this regard, my mental health is something that first needs support from home, which I will never get. To my mom, if you don’t recognize theres a problem it won’t hurt you, all I can say is thats wrong. If you are trying to avoid your problems, any problem, but especially those from within, face it. You have to. It won’t go away because you ignore it and it won’t get better because you pretend its not there. Thats all, if you read this far I appreciate it, this is just my short ramblings while I sit on the bus on this foggy early morning. I hope you’re all doing well.