Promise?

The promise I made

I remember the night i made that promise, I was confident that I'd keep it... you made sure I'd be safe with myself but after a month that promise was broken.

The pain, guilt and disappointment all set in after, I was still crying but it wasn't because of how I was feeling but because I remembered that promise and I broke it. I honestly can't tell you.. I had one thing to do but I couldn't even do that.

It's been two days since I broke that promise and I haven't texted you... I don't want you to find out.. what if you react like my parents did all those years ago? or what if this sets you off and we end things? 

You are the one good thing that happened to me in all these years... when I'm with you i feel happy...I don't want to lose you but I can't keep this a secret forever because you deserve to know...however this plays out I hope you know, you've made me feel like I can be loved..and I love you more than anything.