love poems

i love u frankieeeee

loving you

love,

such an all consuming feeling.

refreshing my page to see if you’ve commented on my posts,

checking if youre online throughout the day,

posting about your absence when youre not.

you fill my stomach with moths and butterflies of all colors;

pink, blue, orange, gray.

you make my heart ache when you are sad, 

i want to hold you and truly convince you of my love.

i call it my heart

but,

how can i do that when it is so full of you?

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thinking of you,

late at night when sleep evades me,

early in the morning when i stare at my ceiling debating getting out of bed,

you cross my mind.

well, you’re always there, but you come to the forefront.

i think about if you slept well, i think about if you are having a good day, i think about you.

im always thinking about you in one way or another.

i worry, and i laugh, and i love.

a good friend of mine will ask me about how you are when i see her in second period.

ill tell her all the things you said to me and all we talked about.

ill tell her that you said “i love you”.

she’ll reply that we’re dating and of course you say that but i know that,

i just dont care.

everytime you say it it feels like the first time again.

all the giddiness and excitement rush forward.

you are there when i need help and i hope to be there when you need it too.

late at night, long after you have said good night, when i cannot sleep

i stare at my wall wishing you were there to hold me.

and that i didnt have to just think about you, 

that i could hold you instead.

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seasonal sadness 

i rot in the bed,

skin melting into soft blankets.

bloody tissues in the trash

and a stained knife in my sink.

i would rather rotting next to you though.

or really if you would just lay beside me and tell me it will be okay.

hold my face in your hands and look at me lovingly.

gently helping me with mundane tastes that become unbearable in this state.

calm patience, loving kisses, and tight hugs.

late night whispers of reassurance as i slowly rot and decay.

this will end with one of us withering away.

if it is you i will hold your corpse close and carve a new home for myself in your chest.

i will love you while i too wither and decay.

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sleeping bones

dear darling,

bones and teeth will remain long after death.

bones cradling what was lost, now found.

chipped teeth reflecting a life lived abundantly.

though our bones may be apart,

my heart will ache for your warm embrace.

my eyes will yearn for you.

my hands will bend and stretch, longing to hold you close.

when i was a girl, 

i would rest on steep hills 

praying for a person to long for.

Then you came and pierced my heart right through.

when the sun rises,

i will roll over, hitting snooze on my alarm, 

and when i do awake it will be from anticipation of our conversations.

oh my love,

though my hands do not grasp yours,

know that my heart aches

and my eyes yearn and my hands long for you.

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Giddy teen love,

late night talks with friends that always start when a screenshot and a panicked text reading;

“what do i say?” in all caps.

my friends will call me and listen to me gush about my crush,

they will offer advice 

and I will follow it, crossing my fingers the whole time.

i will  try to calm my racing heart as i respond 

my friends will tease me but I'll be the happiest I've been in a while.

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new beginnings

i want to walk through every day hand in hand with you,

I want every breath to be spent talking to you.

i run from my last class, begging my teacher to let me use my phone

“please” i say dragging out my E’s

my teacher will  look at me, exasperated,

with a begrudging “fine” 

I will run to see if you are online.

I will spend my day checking if you are online and telling my friends about you.

my friends will call me a hopeless romantic,

I will laugh and tell them something you said to me the night before.

i want to spend everyday with you,

hand in hand.