Saving up and moving out

Purple’s my favourite colour so I thought I’d make a blog post in purple writing for the first time! I really wanna talk about my hopes to move out. I’m struggling because I used to live alone, then my mum came back and we live together and then my sister moved back. Now there’s 3 of us in a flat and my other sister is moving back in too. She’s meant to move in for February but my mum is encouraging her to move in before Christmas. I’m really sad because I used to have independence and my own space, now it’s difficult to have that and I have people telling me what to do. When my other sister comes back I’ll have nowhere to sit on my own and just relax. If we lived in a house I’d feel better but a flat doesn’t give me as much space.

I’d really like to move out with my girlfriend and I want to save money, but it’s difficult especially because my mum is saying I have to contribute more money from January but my part time job contract ends then. I don’t have the ability to do a full time job because I have therapy twice a week for over a year for my BPD. My mum is saying she came back to help me but it doesn’t feel like it much especially because I’ll be paying a similar amount to how much I was paying when I lived by myself.

I’m just really upset, and I know I need to really push and save up and sell some things.