Thoughts

Starting this off, I just wanted to use this blog as a means of getting my thoughts down. I'm an art student who started doing higher education as a means of escaping my old household. I didn't have the best home situation, but not the worst. As I continue my way through my art courses, I realize that I have nothing planned for my future. I may only be halfway through my second year, but I still feel an overwhelming dread when it comes to my future. I mean, who's to say that I'll even pass?

Either way, I just have no idea what I'll do. I can't just continue through life without a job or anything, I'll need to do something eventually. The only thing with getting a job is the fact that my only opportunities require every form of socializing. I haven't ever been diagnosed with anxiety, but I can't say that how I feel isn't anxiety. I tend to feel like throwing up when pushed into social situations, I pick at my skin when I get stressed in social situations to the point of bleeding, I forget to breathe or have trouble breathing, and so on.

I plan to get diagnosed whenever I can though. It's just hard in the situation I'm in. Anyway, this was an impluse blog because I felt overwhelmed by my thoughts. I'll have instant regret once I post this and feel anxious about it, but what's done has been done.