old internet, social media (but mostly tumblr)

Ok so I use Tumblr as my main (and basically only) social media. Never been big on this whole thing, I feel like I'm too private for it and also too prone to addiction so whenever I've given in and installed tiktok, it has kinda ruined my life a little bit. So I tend to stay away from it. I don't even find it that appealing; I'm not that interested in watching a bunch of strangers do or say stuff. Besides, I also suffer from terrible envy and that paired with low self esteem is a cocktail for disaster. So yeah, not big on social media.

As of today, november 12th, tumblr is sorta... collapsing. Now here's the thing, I use it for the reasons most people there use it: fandom stuff. I love shows, movies, music, you name it. And I love looking at gifsets of my favorite shows, at pictures I can save on my phone, reading through posts about meta or simple discussions or memes on certain media. Frankly, that's the whole appeal of the socialized internet for me; just sharing a laugh with like-minded people about some show or book. It's just plain ol' fun! SO ANYWAYS GOD I KEEP GETTING SIDETRACKED... tumblr is literally dying folks, and it's not fun to see. I mean we've had such scares many times and nothing has really happened but we cannot ignore the fact that it IS s dying website and has been for some time. Which is extremely sad. I've been using tumblr since I was around 13, and I'm almost 22 now, so that's almost a decade of a community I've been a part of.

It has made me think a lot about the state of the internet, social media, the world for christ's sake... It's all so, well, dire. I just don't know what I'd do if tumblr disappeared or if, for that matter, it'd be worse if it slowly stopped functioning until one day not even the post feature worked and none of us could speak and it became a void... it just makes you realize how uncertain the internet is, really. If a website can vanish just like that, be forgotten in time, all the content made in it left to perish... this is extremely melodramatic I know, but come on, it's sad! It's so sad.

A lot of people talk about what they'd do if (when) the website stops working. Most say they¡ll use another social media and call it a day. I don't think I can do that. I can't just pop into instagram simply for the fact that I don't give a shit what goes on in there. Besides, there's a very specific energy to tumblr that I haven't seen anywhere else (maybe and very occassionally reddit) so it would be like shutting off a part of my personality (because as many other queer STRANGE people, I don't really feel like talking about goddamn ships from tv shows with my friends from uni). It's a very internet-specific thing that would be lost, and it just adds to my anxiety. So. Yeah. Concerned is little compared to what I'm feeling.

If anyone comes across this post, hey, hello, I am cannibalismpdf on tumblr and I like shows and I'll never leave tumblr if god allows it. Yeah. Tell me alternatives to tumblr because i am truly truly DISTRESSED.