mental health help

the last time I used this website I was terribly depressed my god. Still am, but not in the lowest point, rather in a nice litle field where I am walking carefully as to not fall into some abyss. It's just like that with depression, and another thing I've learned is to live with it. I've been going to a therapist for almost a year now, and the changes from then and now are quite something. I guess I still feel lost and weird like almost everyday, but it's more bearable now that I know I am not evil or fucked up to the core; rather, that my brain chemistry is a bit on the sadder side, and that's why I get strange ideas. But therapy helps. I'm trying to not go on meds, for now life is tame enough that i can manage it, but I'm guessing as the years move forwards I'll start taking some form of medication.

Wow. Word vomit alert. oh well, this is my personal blog, who cares. TLDR : mental health suxxxxxxx