Ive reached a point in my life

so I'm like, very throat sick and i woke up and can't sleep and its this moment where I sorta had a crisis

So I sorta figured like.. I dont wanna die,, but I also dont see a point in living? Like, I dont have any goals or aspersions, I'm in the 11th grade having people tell me what I should do and where I should go after school and what theyre doing when they graduate meanwhile ive barely unlocked empathy and the capability to grasp the permanence of death. 

Am I just weird?? Like, I feel fine mentally, I'm not really depressed just kinda existential where I dont see myself as valuable but also dont want to die 

Edit: Told my friend and he said its something called anomie but I have no idea what that means