Again i feel crazy

this is basically just me venting feel free to comment

i dont know what to even do about this guy anymore. like i like him alot and hes actually brought out the best in me and now that i have all of these feelings for someone who has told me he is not wanting a relationship. and i cant even say anything bad about him because i did know this from the begining and yet i still fell for him and now i feel like im just stuck