Hello?

I haven't been on spacehey for such a long time omg

I think I only used it at the start of this year and now it's almost over now that I'm reminded of start of the year my mental health has gotten so much worse wtf and I don't even want to get better

Literally can't get the thoughts of not actually being real to go away and I only have two ways to cope with it 

But atleast I'm prettier now that's something atleast

I didn't do shit today being on yt for almost 5 hours watching all endings of needy streamer overload didn't see every single live tho so maybe I'll search for that tomorrow but the rainbow girl ending broke me fr

Maybe one day I'll actually do something productive instead of rotting in my bed all day 

My only reason to keep living is to meet mira going to try and live a normal life so I can get money and finally meet her