high school

im so over with school and its only been about 2-3 months back from summer, my little sister (shes in middle school) has all A's for years.

i have bad adhd and only recently has the school given me a 504, because in elementery yes i was struggling but "still passing" and therfore never qualifiy for the 504 or iep

it was only last year in novemeber 14-15 when i returened back to school after my OD and that was about a week long period i wasnt in school because dispite admitting to nurses high out my mind that the only reason i OD was for it all to be over, but to the hospital i didnt qualifiy to be put in their psychward and was suppose to leave the ICU after i woke up.

what happened was i OD on focalin (adhd med) and my mother came into my room and started yelling at me to take her seriosly, i was bobbing my head, drawing all over myself and i was sweating heavly, my mother and her bf are in the med field and checked my pulse, my heart was racing. when i reached the ER i lied in the bed and looking up to the wall behind me the green and white stripes on the wall were moving (to me at least) i was very scared and the whole time was just bawling my eyes out and at some point when they (nurses) tried to flush the drugs out whatever they used the first time didnt work and only argravated me more and i had started cussing at everyone in the room, then when they tried something else to flush it out, it worked but the down side was i was sleeping for 2 days, not in a coma just sleeping.

the only things i really remember was when my mother brought my blanket and my dino plush from build-a-bear from years ago, for the days following that i held onto that plush the whole time i was there, when i was told i wasnt coming home, i was still out of it and i assumed i was going to be put in a stright jacket and through in a padded room.

the day i came home was hard.

when i was back in school the next day, i tore up my arm (with my nails) and all the questions on where i was, it was alot to handle.

ever since ive had a 504, (od was school related) 

im on a no fly list, if you dont know what that is its just where you cant leave class without a teacher or staff member with you, and instead of requesting a staff member teachers can out right refuse to even requst one on your behalf.

idk this kinda just a vent