writevember #7 young sheldon

i am a nice normal girl. i dont need to be scared. nothing is so serious like this. also im a really nice girl and i am forgiven. i love myself and i can do anything i set my mind to. i am extremely normal. i am eating a frozen banana right now and it tastes so good. i think skyler gave me this idea? god its been a while. i almost forgot about frozen banana treat heaven. just had an important conversation with my mama about the future. specifically the future of my living situation. got a touch of lore into the past which is always nice. i wish my parents were happy and together sometimes LOL. hear me out. i wish the tender selflessness of my mom and the confident sharpness of my dad could morph into one parent. whenever im with one i miss the other. although my dad gets make-your-head-explodey very very quickly. oh well. im glad theyre not together as fuck. phil is playing with a balloon. today i was reflecting on the feeling i get when i remember that the world that we live in is literally a rock flinging thorugh space HEAR ME OUT FOR GOD SAKES HOLD ON!!!!!!! literally whenever it is cold outside and im in a parking lot im like holy shit. the sun is shining on this barely livable planet. i feel like i could be on pluto. i am so aware of the fact that i am in flipping space on a planet where somehow there is complex awareness. its extremely comforting those moments of lucidity and i remember that it is okay to imagine things and be silly and wrong because i could be sitting on pluto as a pile of dust but im a me, a girl in the world. a girl in the world and why shouldnt i use my creativity and sense of wonder to its greatest potential. i hope i didnt get too big bang theory on yo asses. i had that same moment of lucidity (awareness of the way the sun is shining onto me through the branches onto the cold hard dirt ground and im just a little creature, like a germ in a pond) when i was looking lovingly into my beloved's eyes today. thanks for making me feel vulnerable and like a creature every single day my precious oozy. u give me the gift of life!!!! i connect with you in a way that is so real and true. like a leaf to a branch. except it never falls away. maybe like a strong trees roots to a soil, and when the tree dies, like a worm to a soil. when the worm dies, like a soil to a soil that becomes a flower haha :)

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