so tired of everything

literally almost everyone i know uses they/them or she/her pronouns for me 99% of the time. this includes most teachers, other classmates, and my fucking friends. the thing is, i don't use either of those. i only use he/him. they/them i used to tolerate but it's getting on my nerves when most people use them on me when i don't use them. and she/her is a whole different story, i can never stand it yet people still use it. and usually when people actually do use they/them they don't get that treatment, but me, as someone who does not use them, of course gets called that. it all just goes to show that no matter what i do people will never see me as who i really am and it fucking hurts. usually i feel kind of empty in terms of dysphoria but after a while it tends to build up and hit me all at once and that's what's happening now. actually wanna kms i can't stand people sometimes