love

i feel like love is hopeless 

now im not a bad looking person (or so what im told) and recently ive been crushing on this boy and to the 3 unregared attempts my male friends have made asking him if he would give me a chance, yes sadly it was a no.

although deep inside i knew that he didnt like me that way or ever would so it wasnt that suprising,i wont lie he is very cute and shy, he never really talks much at school but whenever he does talk or smile its the cutest thing and i feel the redish color cover my face.

im trying to move on but i dont know why its this hard, we never got together and were nothing more than strangers now.

i was too emaressed to go up to him and tell him myself, when i told what i thought would be trustingly quiet friends this matter THEY RAN UP TO HIM AND TRIED TO GET HIM IN FRONT OF ME TO GET ME TO CONFESS, eventually they went up to him and kept asking if he'd give me a chance.

obivously in public i tried not to have too much of an emotioinal reaction but on the inside i really just wanted to start crying, the next day i told my friend (faith) about it because ive known her a lot longer and i trust her, she said that maybe he only said no because he is shy and whhat ever, and advice from another friend told me to make a bracelet for him and if he wore it, i could have a chance (if not just be friends) 

i did just that, i made him a bracelet and the day before i had went up behind him and covered his eyes and asked guess who, his blushing smile is something i never want to forget.

but as recently as of today(all that was 2-3 weeks ago) i think he hates me or something, when my male friends asked him to be in our group (gym class) he shook his head and maybe its because of the overly crazyness of them but when they said OH DAMN HE SAID NO

i figured he would, i prolly wouldve done the same, and he always sits away from the table we (me and my other friends that invited him to sit with us) used to sit at and now sits across the room from me.

i just dont know why this hurt feeling is lasting this long 

advice?