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Reality checks don't help when I am venting about the same stuff

So I was venting about how I am still getting over being kicked out of my uncle's house, and another housemate walks in and says they'll never force me to work but eventually I will have to because Crappytalism (no I don't like Capitalism and I never will.) and it felt like I was invalidated because I can't handle working. I literally can't. 


And let me explain before someone calls me a baby and that I should work my way to whatever I want. I have multiple disabilities that I don't have the luxury of getting diagnosed, and before I get called fake, I did my research with scientific articles. Anyway I was trying to get some feelings off of my chest and it didn't make me feel better to be hit with the reality of things. If anything it made me feel like I was actively being called out like I was abusing a privilege I didn't know I had. I just wanted to get what happened there off of my chest again. I wasn't trying to say I would never work again, I need accommodations that I can't get until I get my forever out of reach diagnoses, so I am trapped in a loop. I just don't think the reality check was what was appropriate for the situation, and yes I know it was an interjection and the context was either barely heard or not heard at all. Doesn't change the fact that it hurt to hear, "If something happens to us you will have to work to make up." when I was in the middle of venting my frustrations about having the expectation that my tiny ass paycheck was going to fix their (My aunt and uncle) problems onto me.

Maybe I am just a baby, maybe I just need to break my back working a dead end job that will make me keel over before I get near the retirement age, idfk anymore.


-Ikkan


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