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im no writer and this is certainly going to end up as a pile of word vomit.

wow is it going to fizzle out for real this time? i cant imagine it being gone. i originally made mine back in 2012 or 2013, i believe. i used to use my grandmothers computer to look at mcr related stuff and stumbled on tumblr that way. ended up making my account pretty soon after that for the same reason. i remember these horrible long threads my friends and i would start just talking shit back and forth making the kind of stupid jokes youd make as a 13 year old on tumblr back then. this was back when reblogs did look like threads and it would get to a point where the post was readable vertically more than horizontally. from there we'd be on these hours long skype calls doing a share screen and scouring the web for old mcr photos that may have been lost to time thru the wayback machine. unfortunately we were too young and dumb to realize the importance of sourcing images so some of them just live on tumblr now, unsourced, maybe to be lost to time once again. and when i say hours long skype calls i mean like pulling all nighters, i remember times where we'd only hanging up bc it was time for her to leave for school. nowadays im a lot quieter on there but the mcr community is still going so strong. theres a lot more respect for archiving pieces of digital history and sourcing photos and interviews etc,. it's crazy to think that a lot of us have been there for this fucking long and still love blogging about that band so much. of course theres a good amount of new fans and blah whatever i digress. this was supposed to be about tumblr!! but really theres not much to say about the site itself, its always had its issues and its glitches. of course this is mainly about the communities we all found on there. and in this day and age of algorithms and a turn away from online anonymity as we get more and more reliant on the internet as part of our personalities and social standing, it really felt like the last bastion of that old internet feel where weirdos with niche interests and intense passion for the things they love could congregate and share all of that together. man there is so much more i could say, so many more memories i could share. but i guess i should wrap this up soon... ah what to say. who knows where the internet will be in 5 years, it really does feel like it will be unrecognizable in that amount of time. and whose to say this really will be the end of tumblr. i mean ive seen that thing survive a lot of deletion scares.. it will probably just fizzle out one day, a shell of what it was, barren. i see myself hanging on until the bitter end, whatever that ends up looking like. its sites like this and people that have the know how to keep the feel of the old internet alive that give me a little hope for the digital future. ok. still dont know how to end this so i guess ill just end it now. if anyone reads it, thanks. if not, well, itll just be more digital trash to float around in the ether i guess.

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