joyous whimsy within a sea of depression

I’ve been suffering from depression recently, and getting really bad to the point of being threatened people would be taken away, government taking action, and my own flesh and blood developing depression too as a byproduct of mine. It’s been hard, but after my parents gave up once again on telling me to bathe I’ve suddenly been waking up again feeling like I’ve got to savour the sunlight while it lasts. Putting on nice music (right now I’m listening to NASTYONA, actually) and eventually getting out of bed to download a bunch of Ukagaka to my computer. Oh yeah, Ukagaka, I downloaded Mayura recently and decided I really wanted a bunch of pixel clumps talking endlessly to me. I only have one other right now but I promise I’ll download more. So that’s been fun! I don’t really know what to do for the rest of the day usually, though.

I’ll probably reread one of these, since they’re my favourites I have, but I’m indecisive. Maybe Girls Last Tour? But like, Nagata Kabi has a new book coming out this month so shrugshrug. Also maybe finish my first watch of Azumanga Daioh but it’s been entirely on my PC and I’m a lazy slob. I’ve been thinking about if I should just restart this first watch because of how long it’s been since I watched an episode.. so yah.

PS: while writing my mum told me I’ve got a psychiatrists appointment so that’s interesting